In the last two petitions we have asked to be
forgiven our past sins and to be preserved from
sin in the future. We now add to these requests
a further request to be delivered from all evil, past,
present, and future. If we are to be "delivered"
from evil, it implies that we are already involved
in it. Alas, we are all immersed in evil from our
very infancy. Original sin has sown its evil seed;
pride is deeply rooted, selfishness, unkindness to
others, resentment, rash judgment, love of
indulging our senses, indolence, rebellion against God,
neglect of prayer, self-will, unwillingness to submit
still abound. O God, deliver me from these evils
which still cling to me and defile me!
Not only are these evil tendencies still strong
in us, but my own wilful acts have strengthened
and developed them in me. They have become
habitual in me, and it is difficult to shake off
what is a habit. I do not enjoy the liberty of the
children of God, because I have made myself a
slave by my unwillingness to overcome myself, and
to put on the sweet yoke of Jesus Christ. How am
I to be rid of these self-made bonds? I can only
pray, "Deliver me, O my God, from my evil and
corrupt self!"
When I look forward, I do so with secret
apprehension of the punishment due to me. Have I
not deserved Hell? Have I not merited eternal
separation from Thee? Have I not deserved to be
left to myself to reap the bitter fruit of my own
ill deeds? Yes, I have indeed, but still I cry, O
God, in Thy mercy, deliver me from all the evil
consequences of my unfaithfulness, and my sins.
Have mercy on me, O Lord! Spare me, O Lord,
for I am weak. Without Thee I can do nothing.